Skepticism; I am so skeptical about some people lately. Have the slightest idea on what they are thinking and what kind of thoughts generate through their mind to make them carry out certain actions. As someone told me before, it's not the actions that really counts, it is the intent behind the actions. Bullshit!
You can tell me how good i am (words), stab my wound (actions) and come telling me you don't mean it (intent) - Is this really how human relations and trust works? If that's the case, i am better off not living if that is the protocol of the society. I refused to conform! And also, i no longer know how much i truly matter to some people. There are some friendships that i am skeptical about because it seems like, i have been forgotten.
I don't deny that my working hours is hindering some well-deserved time spent with my friends but we all have to adapt to each other and make the best out of everything. Unless i quit my job!
Sorry that i have been ranting but i am seriously fuckin' pissed at some people / friends in my life.
You can tell me how good i am (words), stab my wound (actions) and come telling me you don't mean it (intent) - Is this really how human relations and trust works? If that's the case, i am better off not living if that is the protocol of the society. I refused to conform! And also, i no longer know how much i truly matter to some people. There are some friendships that i am skeptical about because it seems like, i have been forgotten.
I don't deny that my working hours is hindering some well-deserved time spent with my friends but we all have to adapt to each other and make the best out of everything. Unless i quit my job!
Sorry that i have been ranting but i am seriously fuckin' pissed at some people / friends in my life.
Everyone is getting married, like omg!
Was just reading a friend's blog and she was thinking about her dream wedding. I didn't caught fann wong and chris marriage because,
1) I am working.
2) No point because, it will just instill more unnecessary expectations for what i want on my wedding.
3) Don't wanna end up chasing away my husband to be, like SATC. haha.
Yes its good to have expectations but is it realistic? We are so caught up with society standards that when we don't stand on the same footing as everyone else, we consider ourselves as a failure. Every single girl craves for a dream wedding but what exactly defines a dream wedding???
A wedding that resembles a fairytale? Photoshoots at Maldives? Fairytales won't exist, and so won't your wedding.
or
A wedding that holds at St Regis - mega grand with christine dior, valentino gowns etc. Sure if you're mega RICH and willing to splurge.
I blamed society and the lack of control and discipline in people for letting themselves be influence by the standards that i deemed unrealistic. Yes i crave for that but i face reality as well.
It's ironic on how people(the ladies) can go on and on talking about dream wedding and how the attention should be on the newly weds when, they don't even take into account their husbands-to-be feelings? It is easy to go on saying "i want this i want that" because it is a "once-in-a-lifetime" experience but have we all realized that, this is the very mentality that could possibly hinder a good marriage?
Why do people get married? To have a ONE-DAY grand wedding or to want to live together as soulmates? Sometimes you can't really have both unless you guys are mega-rich and your hubby is mega-romantic. As i said time and time again, i crave for a dream wedding (who doesn't) but when i get a simple wedding, i will be contented and happy because that wedding day is not the key thing of marriage - It is really the life and responsibility after marriage.
Eileen and i met up for a short lunch and she mentioned something critical - having children before and after 30 could post some possible danger to the infant and mother. I am still pondering over this with Jin and hopefully when things are more stable, we are able to discuss our future on marriage and kids. Sigh, 6 years is such a short time. I have way to many things to do. To incorporate having kids into that 6 years makes time even shorter now.
Was just reading a friend's blog and she was thinking about her dream wedding. I didn't caught fann wong and chris marriage because,
1) I am working.
2) No point because, it will just instill more unnecessary expectations for what i want on my wedding.
3) Don't wanna end up chasing away my husband to be, like SATC. haha.
Yes its good to have expectations but is it realistic? We are so caught up with society standards that when we don't stand on the same footing as everyone else, we consider ourselves as a failure. Every single girl craves for a dream wedding but what exactly defines a dream wedding???
A wedding that resembles a fairytale? Photoshoots at Maldives? Fairytales won't exist, and so won't your wedding.
or
A wedding that holds at St Regis - mega grand with christine dior, valentino gowns etc. Sure if you're mega RICH and willing to splurge.
I blamed society and the lack of control and discipline in people for letting themselves be influence by the standards that i deemed unrealistic. Yes i crave for that but i face reality as well.
It's ironic on how people(the ladies) can go on and on talking about dream wedding and how the attention should be on the newly weds when, they don't even take into account their husbands-to-be feelings? It is easy to go on saying "i want this i want that" because it is a "once-in-a-lifetime" experience but have we all realized that, this is the very mentality that could possibly hinder a good marriage?
Why do people get married? To have a ONE-DAY grand wedding or to want to live together as soulmates? Sometimes you can't really have both unless you guys are mega-rich and your hubby is mega-romantic. As i said time and time again, i crave for a dream wedding (who doesn't) but when i get a simple wedding, i will be contented and happy because that wedding day is not the key thing of marriage - It is really the life and responsibility after marriage.
Eileen and i met up for a short lunch and she mentioned something critical - having children before and after 30 could post some possible danger to the infant and mother. I am still pondering over this with Jin and hopefully when things are more stable, we are able to discuss our future on marriage and kids. Sigh, 6 years is such a short time. I have way to many things to do. To incorporate having kids into that 6 years makes time even shorter now.
This baby has gotten so dusty.
My life for the past months was a complete destruction. I felt that, i probably deserved it. Am patiently waiting for the day whereby i could gather enough courage to blog out the things that happened. But i guess i couldn't. I wanted miracle. But i believe miracles are given to people who deserves it.
I don't :(
As how sis puts it, "Death by love". I fall prey to love every single time. Love could give me happiness yet sadness at the same time. It doesn't matter how problematic a relationship is but when there is assurance that both parties are there for each other, everything else falls nicely into place.
I constantly hear people commenting about how their bfs not doing this and that and how annoyed they were over many many things. Trust me ladies, you weren't wanna be in my shoes. All these expectations are NOTHING but unnecessary problems you are all creating for yourself.
Take the time to think and CHERISH what you have, instead of complaining what you don't!
I hope we will make it - our final lap.
My life for the past months was a complete destruction. I felt that, i probably deserved it. Am patiently waiting for the day whereby i could gather enough courage to blog out the things that happened. But i guess i couldn't. I wanted miracle. But i believe miracles are given to people who deserves it.
I don't :(
As how sis puts it, "Death by love". I fall prey to love every single time. Love could give me happiness yet sadness at the same time. It doesn't matter how problematic a relationship is but when there is assurance that both parties are there for each other, everything else falls nicely into place.
I constantly hear people commenting about how their bfs not doing this and that and how annoyed they were over many many things. Trust me ladies, you weren't wanna be in my shoes. All these expectations are NOTHING but unnecessary problems you are all creating for yourself.
Take the time to think and CHERISH what you have, instead of complaining what you don't!
I hope we will make it - our final lap.
Just the other time, i was telling my colleague that work is keeping me so busy that i hardly have time to myself anymore. He was astonished and told me he never thought of having time to himself. His life mostly revolves around his partner and work! I understand that everyone is different but I strongly believe that time to yourself is essential!
Okay I overestimated myself to the max. I thought i could balance work with family, partner, friends and myself. I ended up sacrificing the last factor and a lil of friends. But with only two days of rest, I could not bear to spend time away from my family and partner. The only best alternative for friends are dinners and lunches over the weekdays. And with plans like these, its no wonder i have like, zilch time to me.
Still trying to manage but iam feeling so jaded and resentful. The less time i have to myself, the more i wanna isolate. Just last week, i encountered many instances where i just want to hide in my shell. Has exchange change me so much?
- I want to make things right this time. No more mistakes! -
Okay I overestimated myself to the max. I thought i could balance work with family, partner, friends and myself. I ended up sacrificing the last factor and a lil of friends. But with only two days of rest, I could not bear to spend time away from my family and partner. The only best alternative for friends are dinners and lunches over the weekdays. And with plans like these, its no wonder i have like, zilch time to me.
Still trying to manage but iam feeling so jaded and resentful. The less time i have to myself, the more i wanna isolate. Just last week, i encountered many instances where i just want to hide in my shell. Has exchange change me so much?
- I want to make things right this time. No more mistakes! -
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